I wrote this down a long time ago and I still don’t know what to do with it.

kantreri:

do you know how many times
in my head
I’ve already said goodbye

mourned your loss
and held my hands to keep from shaking
as I put your memory in the ground?

laid to rest
my beating heart
and all the little loopholes in my strength you found?

a thousand times now
a thousand times now